Another Rebirth

2008 has been a wonderful wonderful year for me. I've been blessed in many ways. . .therefore, the devil has hard at work in my life as well. Of course. As I fight with the devil, everytime I fall down he keeps me down real low and then God picks me up and I have some kind of new realization about something...it's like a rebirth every time. Today my rebirth came in this form: (may not flow as well as it does when I recite it but try to feel me)

The Pretty Gene

I'm a pretty girl
But what does that mean?
It doesn't bring substance
It doesn't stop a thing

Ignorant admiration and comparisons
Lead to tentative aggravation, false conclusions, lost imperatives

Who cares?. . .So I'm pretty
Well so is she, her, her, and that one over there too
What's the use of taking note
I'll never walk in their shoes

And they'll never walk in mine
I need to know what defines
Me

Say I lose my hair tomorrow
Say my man walks away
You think me being pretty will EVER make him stay?
Not when there's pretty walking past him everyday

There is no immunity
Life shatters dreams
Sadness all around me
As pretty as it seems

They say I'm a pretty girl
Let me invite you into my world

Tears and lost ambitions
Confidence has striked out
My faith has left a void
That the devil fills with doubt

They've told me all my life
How nice and sweet I am
But what they forgot to tell me
Is people don't give a damn

Tear you up and break you down
Make you stumble all around

How my world would easily shatter
How pretty really doesn't matter

I've been lied on
Lied to
Cheated on
And left behind
Women are just beautiful
It's all in God's design

My pretty no longer defines me
Tonight that's what I decide
I want to live life sublimely
Contributing from the inside

My man he loves me
And I'm sure my pretty is a plus
But he was sent from up above me
And that's what defines us

If pretty was all he needed
He could've settled long ago
Cause pretty is all of his exes
And even some of his hoes

I'm a pretty girl
But so is she and so is she
There are alot of pretty girls
And pretty don't mean a thing.

Who am I to be fearful of anything under the sun?

"Our biggest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

-Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love

Who am I NOT TO BE!?
Pure motivation for me today.

Daydreamin'

If I were living out every dream that I have for my life right now I would be: the owner and operator of my own boutique (I already have the name. . .but that's confidential info LOL), I would be making at least $50, 000 a year. . .I don't need much, just to be able to provide for myself and my loved ones comfortably. I would have a non-profit organization for women in need, I would be the best PR lady in the USA, I would be out on my own supporting myself and I would have more control over my temper :) Wouldn't life be perfect then??
If you were living out every dream that you have for your life, what would you be doing??